Appetite
I think my appetite is period-dependent...To investigate the influence of ovarian hormones on energy regulation, twenty-six normal weight, noneating disordered women recorded their food consumption, exercise, and eating patterns over one menstrual cycle. Serum levels of ovarian hormones were measured to determine three menstrual cycle phases, namely perimenstrual, follicular/ovulatory, and luteal. Energy intake increased 685.9 kJ/day (p <>-- Physiology & Behavior 56(3):523,1994I do have cravings for high-fat food during luteal phase. Then again, think I am entering ovulatory phase now and somehow I am hungry so often.Labels: food
hunger
I am not bored. Just taking my lunch break before peering through the scope again for dissection.
Have no idea why I was so hungry earlier. I was in the midst of dissecting when I suddenly felt these hunger pangs -- unbearable. I took 5, had a banana, a cookie and a chocolate.
Just decided to search for "dead" in channel news asia.
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How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.
Labels: food
fake plastic earth
Lately, I've been thinking a lot about what I want in life. And I'm still brooding over that because suddenly, I realise that I don't really know what I want. Even if I have any vague ideas at all, I am uncertain.I keep asking myself if this is what i really want. Will there be regrets?We only live once.Someone once commented I sound bitter.Maybe I do. And I wonder what happened to myself. I've taken on such a skeptical outlook towards life that everything is drab in grey. I listen to depressing music and I like it. I wonder why people want to get married and settle down. i don know why. The only reason right now at least, on why I will get married is because it gives me that legitimate excuse to move out.According to my mum, I should get married else its as if "no one wants me". Societal discrimination, stereotype. She thinks that I am fortunate, and I will have happiness because my ex-bf was willing to do my laundry for me. **Note: any guy who does your laundry for u is a good guy. But please note also the "ex" prefix.About ex-es. Mk and gf just broke up not long ago and he still feels pretty sore about that. He does not understand why she still chats with him online as if nothing happened. Because to him, it hurts. I told him something that I never knew I know. That is, its usually the one who initiates the break who hurts less. And because they hurt less, they do not realise how upset the other party is and therefore will resume the "friendship" as if nothing has happened. I fall into that myself. I realise that only now.Bad karma this week. Or maybe I am pms-ing. Been a loggerheads with mum. Don know why but everything about her irks me. Its ironic, its tragic, that to the person who i owe everything to, i should develop such feelings. Therefore, i figured its best that I move out before relationship sours. Then again, she is absolutely against my moving out -- i don think its all that a bad thing but apparently she does. Chinese/eastern vs western values.Its a double whammy week of feeling down. I have this on repeat and somehow, it really eats into you.------------------------------------------Her green plastic watering-can for
fake Chinese rubber plant
In the fake plastic earth
That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plants to get rid of itself
It wears her out She lives with a broken man,
A cracked polystyrene man who just crumbles and burns
He used to do surgery for girls in the eighties
But gravity always wins and it wears it out
-----------------------------------------------On a happier note, went for some warehouse shoe sale yesterday and bought like there's not tomorrow. Oh well if all the shoes had my size, i might have. It was a process of choosing 6 pairs and then decided to be more cool headed and painfully bought only 3 pairs. Then again, I have no idea what I am going to do with bright pink sandals. It was like "i've always a pink pair" so i took it.
Exercise NorthStar
http://chuqianyiding.blogspot.com/2006/01/hunger.html
This entry is belated but its something it grated my nerves on Sunday.
Exercise NorthStar -- as good as it can be, gets irritating when the
the channel 5 news spent a total 20mins on it, out of 30mins (Adverts
incl).
Then again, someone told me that since its Channel 5 news, its called
HOME news so perhaps I should stop bitching about it.
Currently listening... currently reading...
James Blunt. Back to Bedlam
I never liked him because I thought he sounded too whiny, and "You're
Beautiful" was overplayed on the radio, so was the MTV. It was
starting to get on my nerves coupled with his voice.
Then one day I walked into HMV and listened to his album. Despite all
my initial bias, I actually liked his music. So I bought the album.
Its been a month since, and I am still so into Back to Bedlam. There's
a certain x-factor to it which I can't place my finger on.
Someone said that its depressing. I admit that it is, especially the
lyrics. I feel that its somehow a nice kind of depression. You just
want to sink in it at the end of the day and stare at the ceiling (and
have flashbacks, and contemplate and think of the 101 ways one can
die)
FLY|The Unsung Hero of the 20th Century Science
I've always been bias towards fly work. Its afterall an invertebrate,
how representative can it be of human? Then I started working with
them. You have absolutely no idea how wonderful they are in the lab.
D.melanogaster are happy when you give them fly food. Happily grow,
mate live and die. They look happy. And I am happy. Not much guilty
pangs when you squash one by accident. Or in absolute clumsiness you
destroy a larvae during dissection. I have to admit, that I am
starting to love them.
I can imagine Dr Z. giving me his oh-so-disapproving look. He is still
into rats. He has been working with them for over 2 years now. I guess
its rather difficult to study pain physiology in flies huh? Is it even
possible? I don think they have nociception.
I've worked with rats too. They just need so much work, care and
attention. And worse still, they bite!
fly base
I think
this is really cool!! But i have no idea wtf it is!! haha. ok no, i am figuring it out. In recent years esp after the human genome project, there has been this mad rush and craze about databases! They are important -- sure, now bioinformatics is such the IN thing. SO many databases sprouting up everywhere, different countries, different uni, or research institute.. and I hv trouble keeping up. Yeah, i belong to the pre-bioinformatics era. At least I am from the molecular techniques era. It was like talking to Patrick who said that western blots, gel electro were new stuff to him in his time!
Its been raining so much these days. Sucks when I have to commute. really.
my week
finally the end of the week. First week of the new year, first week on my new job. So far so good.
Was practising on larvae dissection in the afternoon... its really quite a challenge to have to coordinate what i see with what i am doing. In a way my proprioception has to be adjusted. Looking through the scope, trying to get the tweezers to pick up the pins (0.025inches?) and driving them through the larvae at certain spots. Have to be be careful not to spew out the entire gut. Using the scope and seeing magnifies tweezers is wierd. And because there is a layer of water on the surface, it get confusing too when the water distorts your field of vision.
Somehow, i can't seem to find the stomach. Apparently that is where i have to cut the gut away and leave watever neurons behind. I am actually thinking that maybe all those larvae today has no stomach??!!
my boss just went back to germany and brought like bars of chocolates back. They are really yummy... "Feinherb Nuss.. Edel-Feinherb-Schokolade mit ganze haselnuessen" can't stop eating them. (i am still eating them...)
This week has been a crazy week. Lack of sleep really. I've learned that one shouldn't drink so much wine the nite before your first day at work. One should not go out and then reach home at 4 am on wednesday -- i was impressed that i survived through work on thurs -- i even sat thru a presentation (over an hour) and i listened!
I am thinking of giving up coffee. Its not easy to have to do dissection if your hand shakes -- coffee does that to me.
within a week, i am suddenly in love with flies. like they are really easy to work with and no guilt pangs when u kill them!
talk.
virgin flies.1st instar, 2nd instar, 3rd instarI'm waiting for my flies to hatch.YS: Why do u need virgin male flies?: *thinking* yeah u are right, it doesn't matter if the males are virgins.(laughs) what was i thinking of?? as if males lay eggs!YS: As long as the females are virgins, u don't have to worryI like my new job!-----------------------------------------------------------------Kris: Where does milk come from?Shan & me (unanimous) : Breasts!Kris: The ans is COW!!We were playing Taboo.-----------------------------------------------------------------Friend is devastated over his recent break up with gf.I think I am the sort of person who no one should come to for comfort unless u want a dose of cold harsh reality. I truly feel very sad for him but what can I say?: Shit happens, but life still goes on.Its doesn't sound very consoling I know... but again, what can i say?Tell him that things will get better, and it isn't the end of the world? I'm pretty sure he knows that.Jon thinks that I need more compassion. Maybe.Sometimes, i think its so difficult to get in touch with my feelings. I remember, distinctly that when I took the MBTI test a long time ago, I scored such a low on the feelings vs thinking scale that its kinda scary.But hey, I use to write poems, enjoy Woodsworth and Shelley. I'm in touch in some ways right?
