Sunday, April 23, 2006

crumbs...

K: I stopped dancing for 7years. When I tell my friends that I went back to ballet, they go "Aren't you too old for that now?"
: I get a lot of that too
K: These people don't really live a life. The just go to work, eat, shit and sleep everyday!

K comes from quite an affluent background. Its easy for her to say this. Money is never a problem.

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When you are single, you wonder if you will always be alone.
When you have a partner, you wonder if you will be happy together always.
There are so many things in life to wonder and worry about. Seems like a never ending vicious cycle.
Its as if we live to worry.
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I ran to the library a on Friday to return a dvd. Looks like running is becoming my mode of transport now. Kills 2 birds with 1 stone. Although I could't stay long in there cos I was getting wierd glances! haha

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I don't like letting people into my life. Because when they leave, they leave traces behind that is hard to erase.
I've always done my running alone. Its time for my own n i like it that way. Until i met a guy who likes to run. I liked him so we ran together. Now that he is gone, traces of him remain on my running route. Memories of him are evoked when I do something as routine and simple as an evening run.

I should run alone. really.
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There are guys who are emotion-sluts. These are the people who don't want a proper relationship. They admit being players and yet they enjoy the thrill of having some "emotional" side to they flings. There is this guy, J who confides in me that he is "with" a gal who gets jealous whenever he talks to me. I was like, then don't talk to me. He goes "But its more fun this way".
These people don't have proper relationships, one night stands are lacklustre in its superficialness. Therefore, they go for such cheap thrills. Male bitches abound.

Oh, but why do I care? In fact, I encouraged him! (at least to just go for the sex)

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My little day dream fantasy one morning on my way to work. I notice that whenever I cross the bridge, my palms n feet tend to get sweaty! So just this week, i thought that I could be the ancestor of future x-man like mutants. Imagine if my sweaty palms condition becomes totally exagerated. I could give out high speed sprays of salted water to attack people! Upon contact with copious amount of my sweat spray, they are instantly immobilized when my sweat crystallizes! Cool huh? So i was telling m. xanthus about this and we started thinking what my salty character's name could be...
: salt woman? Sounds rather bad though..
xanthus: (thinks..) how about Crystallo?
: that sounds cool,.. oh how about NaCli?
you know for salt..