we don't have forever
Yesterday I was feeling rather off form. It went like this: It hits me like every once in a while that we don't have forever. Time is therefore limited and precious so I ought to make the most out of whatever I have. Therefore, why am i wasting this limited time doing things that i don't wanna do? Such as, work? Ok i need the money. then again, why can't money just rain from the sky? I sound like some petulant brat. The kid who can't wait and insists on instant gratification. I can't wait to travel. I can't wait to have enough money for travelling simple because i don't know when i will die. I don't want to live the irony of having slogged my entire life to never enjoy it.Watching grey's Anatomy has night really spoke to me. Meredith was lying in bed. She refuses to get up for work. She is waiting for death. "we think we have forever but we don't" aptly describes how i was feeling the entire day.
Its not a matter of just chaning job because i sure love my job though it leaves me a pauper. haha. Its just the entire idea of working, so that i can afford certain things in the unpredictable future, totally puts me off. Because as much as i am aware that life isn't forever, i also know that the future is highly volatile.
so what do i do now?
posted by eline @ 6:38 PM
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