aquatics
latest collection -- RALPH by Ralph Lauren.
its really not my usual scent because the top note is too flowery. Its too much. But somehow, it settles into a very oceanic like scent. Which is really weird because i have been scouring the web for user's description of this fragrance and not one person mentioned that ocean scent i experienced. Its sort of tangy-salty-sea-breeze which reminds me of the beaches in Phuket.
So i have a thing for fresh scents. I like fruity more than floral. Orientals is certainly not my cup of tea. Sometimes i like scents which settles into a powdery-talc form such as Kenzo's Flower and Lolita Lempicka. I like the apple in DKNY's Be Delicious, apparently Ralph has apple leaves too... I love the aquatics. Still, Issey miyake is by far the best i've ever come across! Its aqua with fruity, zesty scent is a very fine balance lending it such an intricate complexity.
I have a L'eau par Kenzo which i really don't like now. I use to like it for its whimsical quality. Its got a very watery feel to it, can't think of how to describe it. But now, it seems that the grassy smell is becoming too much. I never noticed its that grassy till now. Which reminds of ISsey's new summer fragrance -- smells like a barn and i have never been to one! haha.. And L'eau par kenzo just disappear so quickly...
The fragrance that you wear has to make you feel good. Make you feel like a million dollars at least! It makes you happy, puts u in a semi delirious state - in a good way. Actually, DKNY and Issey really has that effect on me. Flower just doesn't last for long so the happiness is very short-lived :(
I tried something from escada today. Its called Blue or ocean or something like that. AND OMG, its super lasting, its still on me after a shower. but u know what, it smells totally like a men's cologne on me!!
Interestingly, Curious by britney is nice. There is a grape like gummy feel to it without being overly sweet. A simple fragrance, nothing really special i guess. Oh, i didn't buy it in then end. Seriously, can't imagine owning something by
Britney!!
can't wait to use Ralph tomorrow. Arh.. that funny escada is still on me!!
underwater photography, my first.
my first attempt at underwater photography.. oh, i suck!
There is always something so magical about seeing turtles on my dives. I have no idea why so. maybe it has something to do with their gentle and calm way of moving in the water. And they look so peaceful, minding their own business... i really don't know what it is about them. I just love to see them.
This is the first time i have been back to Tioman after 5 years! Tioman was the place I fell in love with scuba diving. I remember clearly that state of euphoria i was in days after the trip. Sighs... i still love to scuba dive, but sadly, the waters at tioman seems to be real bad now. I don't know if its just this one freak weekend, or that it has been like this for some time. Back then, visibility was like up to 20m for every dive. You could see so much. There were lionfishes -- which were missing this time round. nudibranchs were in abundance, fishes were everywhere. This time, at the Marine park, geez, it was so quiet. Thats sad. I might as well go diving in Pulau hantu.
later...
life as a movie
Sometimes, i fall into a self-sabotaging mood. Its the mood when you intentionally do something which can totally screw you up and yet you still persist in doing so. Its not that intentional, but rather more uncontrollable. Its like watching your life as a movie, and you have no control over what is happening, over the plot and shit, even the remote control is missing!
yes, thats how i feel right now.
Just yesterday, i had to pick on something completely trivial and make myself feel all so awful about it. I am such an ass in that sense.
thoughts after a long respite
yes, it has been quite some time since i last penned, or rather blogged my thoughts. I don't know, i didn't feel like writing because i guess, i refuse to face up to reality. its scares me, seriously. 2 years ago, i would have been excited at the thought of leaving. now, i wonder if its something i really want. if its the right thing to do. Its something i wanted for a very long time, and i ask myself, do i still want it?
although i don really like the place where i am working at, i love my boss. She is absolutely wonderful. I love my work. i am getting good results. publishable stuff -- isn't that what every researcher wants? I get to travel for conferences too. i get access to journals (yes i am a total nerd).
i love my colleagues. we are more than colleagues, we have become friends. we hang out beyond office hours. we even go for trips together. we play tennis on mondays (or we used to). Sometimes we go out for drinks on fridays... we do evening runs too... we go to the gymn, we go shopping...
on weekends, i go for ballet. can't believe that i have been dancing for more than 2 years!
recently, i started windsurfing.
sometimes, i go to east coast park for roller blading.
i go on a dive trip at least once a year.
I am giving up all of these when i leave. It may not sound a lot. it may not even be significant to anyone who chance upon this post. But trust me, as pathetic as it may seem, this is my life now. although it is not perfect, i can be contented with it.
Perhaps its true that the older we get, the more resistant we are to changes. have i become that old?
i don't know. but in the remaining days here, i am packing up not just my belongings, but my life here as well. every day here is special, treasured. every friend i get to meet up with, means a lot to me.
i am getting cold feet. Its analogous to getting married. Although i am going away for only 5 years, this very act of committing feels like marriage to me. what if i don't like it? And what if i like it so much i never want to come back?
Friends i will leave behind, new friends i will make. i hate the thought of leaving my current friends. I hate it that the next time i meet them, an inexplicable gulf might have opened up between us. maybe due to my absence in their lives of vice versa. i detest it when people tell you something like
lets keep in touch. Because, people rarely do. and invariably, we all drift apart. i hate that.
i just had this sudden urge to check up a friend's
blog . We were close once, and as we moved on with our different career choices, its inevitable that we lose touch with each other. Yet, when i read his blog, it sounded just like him. the things he use to talk about, what he is most concern with, and well basically his thought process. it felt so real. and then all of a sudden, i missed those times long gone. we are all moving on. we have to, because no matter what happens, life still goes on. time waits for no one, and sometimes, this is so cruel. Time is our greatest lesson in life.
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so i just removed my other 2 wisdom teeth.
and currently, i am so in love with this song, i play it on repeat.
Bell X1 - Eve The Apple Of My Eye
You left it, I sent it
I want it back
You left it, I sent it
I want it back
If I had you here, I'd clip your wings
Snap you up and leave you sprawling on my pin
This plan of mine is oh so very lame
Can't you see the grass is greener where it rains
You left, I died,
I went and you cried
You came, I think
But I never really know
I've served my time
I've watched you climb
The wrong incline
But what do I know
Accept it, Don't let it
Turn the screw
Accept it, And let it
Scream back at you
Now this applies both equally to you and I
The only thing that we share
Is the same sky
These empty metaphors
They're all in vain
Like can't you see the grass is greener where it rains
You left, I died,
I went and you cried
You came, I think
But I never really know
I've served my time
I've watched you climb
The wrong incline
But what do I know
and right now, i am wearing DKNY's be delicious. I am thinking of getting Davidoff's latest. i like Kenzo's Amour because i have a crush on the bottle. Also Issey's new A drop on a petal has a sweet thing to it. Unlike Anna Sui's uber sweet. Issey's is more subtle. Although, my favorite of all time, and my first love, is L'Eau D'Issey.
