Daily Crumbs

There's actually a high in being busy. And since you are busy, you eat less. The day goes by much faster. And you appreciate every break you get.

I think that is what has been lacking in my life lately. I have work. But its not pressing stuff. Nor is it awfully inspiring enough for me to procrastinate lunch because of it. As a result, i must declare that i was a sloth. You reap what you sow. You are what you eat. So today, I discovered that extra inch of flab, a tummy. Its been a long time since i had a flat stomach. There's been a tiny bulge for some time. It isn't perfect but i can live with that bit of flab since i have the excuse of age and therefore slower metabolism. However, the recent addition is unacceptable. And i blame it on just not being busy. (i have been running but with my appetite, its apparently not enough)

Today was a better day than the last few weeks. Because the quarter starts tomorrow and the campus isn't such a ghost town anymore. I have to admit that being here during the winter break is completely depressing. The weather was god awful, there was barely anyone to talk to, or to hang out with. It was so lonely. My life came to a standstill. I guess being new here and all, not being able to drive or get around so easily made me feel pretty stranded. Its a sense of helplessness that i've not experienced for a long time. Back to today... i never thought that i will be so happy to see some of my classmates. I got up early, did some stretches, ate a light breakfast and was in lab earlier than usual. I got stuff done, not necessarily successful, but i was busy. I felt preoccupied. And it was a good feeling. I wasn't even hungry by lunch time. It was then i realised that its been quite a while since i felt this way. And maybe thats why I eat to feel busy. Its sad to put it in this way but i guess that's how it is.

And the more you eat, the more sluggish you feel. Its a vicious cycle. I have to get out this rut and just lose that flab. More is always welcome. 

tomorrow is going to be rainy. i hope it doesn't because i so want to go for a run.